We are just good friends....

Sometimes somewhere somehow life makes you meet her whom you ignore the first time. You see her, look at her face and the eyes just pass by, without even taking any notice. They meet you again may be after months or years, you hardly remember meeting her, but this time you seem to get face to face..... You exchange smiles and say 'Hi'.... she says the same and the talk starts..... Her mere way of talking is so sweet that you go into a trance thinking that such sweet people also exist in this world..... She is special.... You go home, thinking about her..... but before sleeping at night you think-what's the use..... it was just a meet and you will meet hundreds of strangers in your life... and you forget her as you know that she must not have felt anything special about you as you did.. and she may hardly remember you.

Life goes on.....The days go by and one day when you open your mail box, to your utter surprise you see a greeting from a stranger's mail-id..... You open the mail and are astonished to see the cutest greeting you have ever got from anyone..... You feel surprised.... at the same time so happy that you are so special for someone.

You try to relate the mail to people you might have met, and suddenly recollect the sweetest person whom you had talked to some days before somewhere..... You call up your friend at whose place you had met her to confirm the e-mail address.. and are at the top of the world to know that it's the same person about whom you had felt so special.... you take that person's number from your friend and call her.....

Someone picks up the phone, and you hear the same sweet voice and your heart skips a beat.... what do you want to say... just a thank-you... or something more... anyways you just say thanks..... and she says form the other side.."You are welcome".... You talk for a while.... drop the phone.... but keep on thinking how will you talk to her again..... But, the next evening the phone rings again and you pick the phone.... the same sweet voice says "Hello"... You are almost on the top of the world.... You become good friends( at least that is what you think..).... You call each other every day.... the conversations go on getting longer and longer..... sometimes running into hours... but you are still friends.... you sit till 2:00 AM in the morning waiting for her on the chat messenger telling parents you have some important work to do... she comes online... you say Hi and she says the same..... the chat starts and the time looses it's importance..... you somehow say bye.. and the chat ends for that night... but you are still only friends..... the chat and phone calls become a daily routine..... The chat starts ending with "Love yous" and things like that....... but you are still only friends...... You go to see each other by then much often and spend the whole day with each other..... you don't want the hours to go by you..... but you are still only friends..... at nights when among with friends or when everyone in the house has slept, you play missed calls for hours .. Time passes by... Job and studies seperate you.... You have tears while seperating from each other..... and when the train just starts from the station you call her to say that "You love her and will miss her"... and she also says the same..... but you are still friends....

You go to a far away place..... and stop missing everyone.... but her... you can't stay without talking her even for a day.. and she too shares all her happiness and worries with you.... you buy a special phone connection so that you can talk to her everyday for atleast 20 mins, as she is the only source of release for you.... her voice is like a pain killer for you after a day's long work.... she tells you that you are the first one she has told about getting of a job.. and you feel happier than anyone else as if its you who has got the job.... but mind you, you are still only friends.....

When she calls.. you suddenly move to a isolated place away from everyone.... you talk for long and the talks start ending with Love yous... but you are just a friend..... friends start teasing you about phone calls and with her name..... but you just ignore and say that you are just freinds.....

You start missing her every moment and one day when you are alone you suddenly question yourself?..... if this is friendship then what is love?.... and the answer is that its nothing but love..... so by now at least you know that you are not friends......you start making things obvious and start believing day after day that yes its love..... You just can't wait to go and meet her and tell her that .... hey you are in love..... you meet her... and tell her those three magical words....but, she gives you a reply that was..... we are just good friends...

Ohhhh!!!.....You don't know what to do?.... The world suddenly doesn't matter to you anymore.... You are no more at peace with yourself.... you suddenly feel cheated.... tears drop down your eyes... you feel like sharing this with someone... but when the one who lived in you heart seemed to have left you, you don't seem to respect anyone worth of sharing this..... you start with a new enthusiasm.... after all you are best friends and how can you loose her..... You try to be friends.... yes so called friends.... but, the calls reduce.... your smses stop getting replied..... your calls are not responded because she is too busy..... your request to go out with her is refused because she has to meet some friend who stays 200 metres away..... you feel so belittled..... your life looses the meaning.... you don't find anymore charm in work... if you want something that's only one......the so-called friend....

You start persuing her... she suddenly becomes much more important than any damn thing in the world..... you run run and run.... and finally one day you fall and get injured so badly that makes you ask your ownself... what are you doing?..... after all .. you are just friends.... you scream.... you cry.... you know its enough and when its enough it has to come to an end..... and one day you decide that the game is over... after all.... you can no more just be friends.... she accepts it calmly..... and moves on......

You try to move on.... but can't ..... as you have now lost both.. the so-called friend and also the so-called love..... but life moves on and on.... after all you are just friends.

You sit thinking about how this all started and realized that you are at fault.... the heart had been opened for someone so wide that no one else got the space to stay except her and once she left..... you have become lifeless, because heart is a integral part of life.

You feel guarded now.... many come many go.... but the heart is closed for one and all... the stamina is gone....no more friends any more.... no more friends any more...