The Soul's run.........

I just sat noticing my breath this moment... Its been going in and out continuously and I can not even calculate the time since it has been with me.... Strange though how can I think of some things like this... but the reason is simple ... this is the way in which poets write the things that are very obvious to the eyes, but they mention it in such a way that we fall into confusion and give it a thought...

I thought to give this practice a try too:) The mind is forcing me to write something once again on the four magical alphabets.. yes you guessed it right.. I am talking once again about L O V E... I am my self arguing with myself that if there is anything still left to write about it.. but the fact is that I have just expressed may be a drop from the ocean.

There is so much that I want to share on soul and spirituality, but the heart just doesn't want to leave this theme... it says its surviving because there is Love in there living in it....

Somehow I am amazed that god could imagine such a wonderful thing that could keep the human race busy each moment each instant.... Love is the basic aspect of existence.. the forms may vary.. but the form that I am stating is the one that is so lovely that its beyond any explanation....

Its even more strange that the moment I think of Love in terms of beloved, I get a inner voice that states.... Hey this is not true.... this is all an illusion... I some how accept the voices command and restrict my soul.. but the soul is a smart entity as soon as I try to find it I see it drenched in love ... just like a child who once not being watched goes out to play in the mud.

I pulled the soul out of the Love and even scolded and warned it that .....hey you are going in a direction that has no ends but just Hurt and nothing else.... but the next moment I just get engaged in something else.. it’s once again engaged in its play.... God knows what is this Love.... Its just not coming into my head.

Its just been few days that I had been to a sea shore where I was walking with my shoes in my hands and my pants folded up to knees so that the water does not wet them...... It was an amazing feel .. a feel of being immersed in the infinite…. Just then I felt as if my other had was looking for some one whose hand I could hold and look at the sunset… I wanted to show the beauty to some one else yet me… something that the other soul would feel without me having to explain it….. I was so infinite at that moment yet so finite.. so incomplete yet so complete.

This illusionary world confuses me…. One moment it says.. ONLY LOVE IS REAL… and on the other moment when you trust it…. You find your self once gain ALONE…. So is LOVE just another fallacy of this world or is it just a way in which god wanted to keep us all occupied. Talking in psychological terms, it might be just a emotional impulse of the mind……. Whatever it is, it has given many a reason to live.

Either we want everything or nothing .. we just don’t compromise….. Life might give us all it can, but if it fails to give us the one we love then all that has been given goes into the bin… on the other hand, if it gives a little, but at the same time also the one you Love, I think seldom anyone complains….. it’s a sort of wrapper that wraps it all…. If you have it you have all, if not, then you have none :)

I feel like oscillating between the two extremes of Fallacy and Truth. On the False end I have LOVE and on the Truth and I have TRUTH…… False is what I know….. But truth is what I need to know…. Let the soul keep oscillating till it gets tired…. But as I can see in the run from the left to right and right to left, the soul comes rejuvenated whenever it comes from the Love’s end, as if some one is standing with a packet of glucose there…. The Truth Side looks so unattractive to the soul that it seldom wants to take the pain to come to this end and runs back to the false love-end from the mid way.. no hurt, no grief, nothing deters the soul form returning to the fallacy… It seems to enjoy the run to the left end….. I doubt if the love has drugged the soul that it has got so used to it and can hardly take a plunge and can jump out of it and quickly run towards the Truth.

Anyways, nothing to worry… I am observing the souls journey…. From the left to the right.. form the falsehood to the truth…. Will keep observing and reporting to all of you when it reaches the final extreme…. We can just hope that it gets free form the trap of the false love and enlightens itself by reaching the truth side.. only then can it also bring to light to all of us as to what the truth is….. as of now it looks like the drug is too strong and it would take a while for the rehabilitation to occur :)