Minding the mind

Something small I wrote on the night of 14th July 2007 ............

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If only I could mind the mind!!!



Last night I came home with a anxiety in mind.... a disturbance...... I hit the bed at 2:00 AM and got up 6:00 AM.... without getting sleep for even a milli second. Gradually I felt the body temperature rising and the AC was not seeming effective to the sweating skin.....



The restlessness and the anxiety continued and even at this point is in me..... I have been trying to run from my own self, from the restlessness..... the thoughts that I want to leave behind leaps in front of me.... how helpless I am feeling.....



But, the best part of this worst scenario is that this is my own mind.... my own self..... How sad it is that we can't tame our own mind ..... own own senses...... this mind drives us crazy day and night, and we like slaves enjoy it's slavery and suffer.



I read once-"The person who has controlled his mind, does not need to control anything else..." ... We all are failures if we can't tame our mind..... It needs the might of the mightiest.... the discipline of the highest order to do so.



I am not in my present... either I am in the past or in the future..... The whole life passed in Future and past... I wonder when will I live in Present!!